What does it really mean to Surrender?
In our busy world perhaps my friends don’t have time to read this full article and so I’ve decided to put the main points here at the top:
What does it really mean to Surrender?
- “Surrender means the very opposite of obsessing!
- It is the contrary of worry!
- It means to thoroughly let go of all outcomes!
- It is the essence of pure Faith and Trust!
- It is to believe whole heartedly in the invisible and unexplainable.
- It means absolute Freedom!”
- It is an expression of the deepest and most profound gratitude and appreciation. That is to say: a “knowing” in our heart of hearts (with the absolute conviction) that what we are experiencing right now is the exact answer to all of our prayers! That all is in perfect order.
If you have time then, here is my story:
Written on: Halloween night, 2014
Last night was Halloween night and a very powerful and epiphany filled night at that.
On this cold, windy and dark night in the heart of the desert, near the gateway of Death Valley, I ended up learning about “How to surrender” and with this wisdom my life was suddenly filled with an all encompassing feeling of Lightness, Peace and a Serenity that has stayed with me ever since.
Working as a vendor, outdoors all day and evening in the cold and wind, left me emotionally and physcially drained. With not one single sale, I found myself in a state of exhaustion and discouragement as I virtually dragged my way back to our little motel room.
There was a very loud, enticing and negative voice insisting and pushing at my brain telling me not to bother doing my evening prayers.
These are the very same prayers that I promised myself more than 3o years ago that I would never, ever miss!
I knew then and there that this was a negative function at work. Clarity gives way to wisdom therefore:
My Buddha nature, my goodness, won over and I settled down to set up my little traveling altar and try my best to fulfill my promise.
As I chanted the words Nam Myo Ho Renge Kyo sonorously I felt my divinity rising up and speaking the words “Surrender.” This was quite startling as I’m not really prone to these sorts of vocal revelations!
This beautiful and calming voice then said “Do you really and truly know what this means?”
The following thoughts then came to me as if a flow, like a magnificent waterfall, cascading down on me from atop a golden mountain.
“Surrender means the very opposite of obsessing! It is the contrary of worry! It means to thoroughly let go of all outcomes! It is the essence of pure Faith and Trust! It is to believe whole heartedly in the invisible and unexplainable. It means absolute Freedom! It is an expression of the deepest and most profound gratitude and appreciation. That is to say: a “knowing” in our heart of hearts (with the absolute conviction) that what we are experiencing right now is the exact answer to all of our prayers! That all is in perfect order.”
I had no idea how we would buy any breakfast the next day, never mind lunch and dinner!
I certainly, at this very moment in prayer, had no idea that I would awaken in so much back pain that I would barely be able to walk to work. I only knew in this prayer zone, this sweet spot, that I was here praying on Halloween night and that I was in total Peace.
All my worries and focusing on lack of money had left me and had been replaced by a deep soothing sensation of warmth and living in the moment.
An so the next day I did indeed wake up with excruciating lower back pain. I wept ceaselessly for an hour as I performed my morning prayers.
Afterwards I felt as though I had released centuries of grief, tension and who knows and else from my body and soul.
I had mustered a strength about me that made my body persevere and found the reserves to get to our booth and to smile a bright and sincere smile to all the people who came. It was beyond me how I did this but I knew it was because of that prayer to surrender.
Within me there as an inexhaustible source of energy and I felt as though I were sitting on a cloud.
We had phenomenal sales that day!
I was also possessed to ask a total stranger for pain pills which he happened to have right there in his pocket!
I felt so connected to all the lovely people who stopped by our booth and felt a profound appreciation for each and every single person. No wonder people wanted to shop with us!
Life is a process and from that moment on I made it a very clear point to express my gratitude daily.
Sending light to all my friends!