PUBLISHED DATE: May 29, 2010 @ 22:18
An auspicious day indeed. Twenty eight years ago, at 11 o’clock in the morning, I changed my destiny forever on into eternity. I am weeping today in gratitude and joy. I chant nam myo ho renge kyo as I have now been doing for these 28 years. It is still fresh in my mind this day, this miraculous day, so many years ago.
I was a deeply troubled young woman, steeped in an existence of alcoholism and nightmares, besieged by loud and incessant voices in my head. A demonic twittering that is so common in cases of people who are diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I had been incarcerated in mental hospitals for 2 years which only served to drug me up, keep me bloated ,lethargic, and hazy, and leaving me still uncured and living in a virtual hell on earth. That is – until I met this marvelous Gohonzon some 8 years later. This was my life, my unhappy fate until this day May 29th, another lifetime ago.
I have had so many miracles in my life that I can recount because of this practice of S.G.I. Buddhism, that I would fill this page and many, many more. What the essence of it all comes down to is that I am finally metamorphosed into the beautiful butterfly I always was and that I held captive inside, until today. This was not an easy road, nor a quick one, but now looking back, it only seems like a moment.
I’ve written my life story in the form of A musical, theater show called “Dancing in the Rain” based on the saying: It’s not waiting for the storm to pass but learning to dance in the rain. I feel that I have been blessed in ways that I can not even fathom and that I owe a debt to the world, a debt to my mentor Daisaku Ikeda, and a calling to help all those who are now suffering.
Thank you Sensei, thank you S.G.I. members and thank you for my life’s lessons so that I may be of service.
TO THIS, MY NEW SELF!
I’M FLYING INTO THE BUDDHA LAND ON GOLDEN WINGS